How are you Numb?

How are you numb... In your relationships? In your work? In how you handle your finances? In your body? How are you Numb in Your Life?

I had a weird dream where good people turned into zombie-like characters and inflicted harm on others.

I had a hard time understanding the dream, until I realized the zombie people were just in a trance/a daze/they were numb. They were following orders. The trance appeared to subside at points, but those under it wanted to be in the daze and wanted others to join them in that daze - like it was easier there; they felt belonging in that group.

Sometimes the dream doesn't make any sense, but the message does!

As a culture, many of us are numb. We are in a trance, following societal norms, listening to others tell us how we should feel and what we should or should not do. We allow the stories of others to dictate how we live our lives - how we speak, what we say, what we do with our time, what we believe is easy, and what we believe is hard or out of our grasp.

Then, a tragedy occurs and the daze may be slightly lifted. There is a slight awakening, but it's uncomfortable. It's easier to remain in the numb state, so we return to it and we want others to join us because it's easier that way.

Some stand up and speak out in the moment. Some aren't able to return into the numb state - they are the change-makers throughout history. And some never leave the numb state - they believe that the daze is the only way to live.

I'm here to tell you that the daze is not the only way to live. I am here to tell you that it's safe to live outside of the daze.

I'm here to tell you that you get to Consciously Decide what you believe and how you live Your Life!

Just like in my dream, you may find yourself separated from those you care about. And, just like in my dream, I knew that living consciously was the better choice for me!

I choose to lift the veil of feeling numb.

I choose to live my life how I decide! I get to decide what gets to be easy - hint: it all gets to be easy. I get to decide what I say, when, and to whom - because its what feels light in my soul to say it. I get to decide how I earn money, what I get to earn, and what else I get to be doing while earning it - I get to be a mother because I want to, an income earner, and a positive influence in this world.

I will hold the space for others to move out of the numb, zombie-like state without judgement. We have all been told similar stories and we have all made choices based on those stories. Most (if not all) of us have experienced this daze at some or many points in our lives, if not our whole lives. It is a practice to lift this veil and step into speaking and acting from your truth.

The Practice

1. Begin to recognize what the stories are
2. Notice where in your life you have accepted the stories - without judgement
3. Tune into how those stories have affected you - do you feel light with the decisions you've made based on those stories, or do you feel heavy in those decisions
4. Start to create YOUR new stories - notice what you want to experience, what you know to be true for you, which decisions are light and which ones are heavy for you
5. As you begin to gain consciousness, hold compassion towards those who are still numb - including yourself as you continue to remove yourself from the daze

It's not all or nothing. Start somewhere.

What is the story that you are most fed up with right now?

It could be personal, or it could be within society. Choose a story that has created heavy decisions for you and REWRITE IT! Choose a new story. Write your own story. You get to Consciously Create Your Life!

Know that you are not alone in this. There are many people who are disentangling themselves from the daze. Even if those people aren't near you geographically, know that you are not alone.

I love you. Namasé,
~A